i want to hurt you over and over
the way you have hurt me
i want to fuck with your mind and make you confused
and make you question your own sanity
for year after year after year
and if you ever confront me i will gaslight you
and call you crazy
my husband will threaten to ruin your reputation
if you ever tell the truth about what i've done to you
i will call you an ugly whore
and yell at you that i will destroy you
and then i will do it
i will make secret promises and hold your dreams hostage
while i float through life on my endless privilege
i want to do everything to you that you have done to me
i want you to feel everything i have felt
but you never will
you will never ever be this isolated
not for a minute much less year after year
after fucking year
if there were ever any justice
you would feel everything i feel.
