i want to close the door on the world and dig into the caverns in my mind and find a warm corner where i can hide. and just stay there until i dissolve into nothing. dissolve into the walls of the caverns in my own mind.
i want to stand on the cliffs in malibu and hear the waves crash below me. see the tiny planes fly above me. that coast, that ocean where i never feel alone. i need more than i've ever needed it before. what am i waiting for?
