20 December 2012

the reasons

she lies on her back under a black sky
under shifting stars, the ancestors of thought
they're giving all the reasons we are in this place
it's not a mistake

he's lying facedown, his arms cover his eyes
in silence so deep, so deep in thought
he's finding all the reasons we are in this place
it's not a mistake

15 December 2012

coloring the night

they're flying down that black highway
wondering where to go
coloring the night in gold
coloring the night in gold

the urgency of all the sweetest dreams
haunted by time
oh the days oh the days go by
oh the days go by

28 November 2012

maybe it's better

maybe it's better to walk on in silence
it's like fragile things crashing into walls
or fresh painted words on old river rocks
it's the changing colors of the seasons and this grief
well maybe it's better to just pick up and leave

maybe it's better to walk on in silence

watching this world passing me by
always from distance, always outside
rounding the corner now i gratefully feel small
i know it's a miracle to feel anything at all

maybe it's better to walk on in silence

27 November 2012

in a blur

fate lays its hands on me
in a move induced by you
one by one they pass me by
in a blur of little lights
looking away, looking away

it is as it's always been
it's only your choice to make
one by one they pass me by
in a blur of little lights
looking away, looking away

25 November 2012

standing still

i don't really know the way the world works
we're all just passing through
i can't see the answers through the walls of this room
and i don't know what will happen if i keep standing still

i don't know why i can't figure it out
why i can't get through
i can't see your reasons through the walls of this room
and i don't know what will happen if i keep standing still

24 November 2012

take your place

i'll count the days of silence on both my hands
take myself away until you understand

no one will ever take your place

slowly

slowly
the way you form your story, slowly
i hope this doesn't kill me, slowly

every sign says you'd better keep on moving
every sign says you'd better keep on growing

slowly
i hope this doesn't kill me, slowly
the way you form your story, slowly

23 November 2012

what's the difference

you know the small talk babe is bringing me down
i'd rather sit alone in silence than be here now

tell me what's the difference between the secrets in your sleep
tell me what's the difference from the life your life
the life you wake to see

you know the small town life, it brings me down
i'd rather be moving with you than be stuck here right now

tell me what's the difference between the secrets in your sleep
tell me what's the difference from the life your life
the life you wake to see

22 November 2012

this path

in the drastic range of shade along this path
fading, fading from light to black then back

well you're on my mind and i hope this time
we'll never have to say goodbye

well i close off my life to everything but the sounds
the noise of the city so faint and sporadic now

well you're on my mind and i hope this time
we'll never have to say goodbye

21 November 2012

ashes

if you think the phoenix rises from the ashes
well maybe that bird was never dead at all
it was never up to you to define its existence
and really who do you think you are?

you are not the sun
you don't have the power to burn
that bird was never dead at all
never dead at all

20 November 2012

in your world

turning off onto side streets
away from the city and the cold
though feeling it all
feeling it all is what life is for

and you hold the magic in your world
in your head in your heart in your soul

you hold the magic in your world

19 November 2012

sleeping city

with the city sleeping in the distance
in the middle of the day it seems right
with cloudcover like a thick blanket
making this noon feel more like night

and i know your eyes hold a different sight
you're always so far away
it's been so long since i've seen you
so long since i've seen your face

24 October 2012

so surreal


digging a hole for the seeds to grow
not everything buried is dead
quiet in hiding while we're riding out the storms
that blow somewhere overhead

living in illusion as long as we need to
the best things are so surreal;
building a palace out of handmade magic
for our world of freedom to feel

21 October 2012

one-way street

this one-way street
can't seem to keep from troubling me

there must be something wrong
with these times

30 September 2012

shoulders

don't you think you can take
the weight of the world
off your shoulders

one hundred thousand million singin voices
there will never be another
like yours


08 September 2012

new moon

they say you'll be home when the new moon comes
i've never understood why they say it's new
it's the same old moon, it's a brand new you
it's the same old maze you send me through

on & on & on

06 September 2012

patterns

it's a loss of all sense
it's a loss of control
this conspiracy of silence
is all i've come to know

you're the shapes on the wall
playing magic tricks with my eyes
you're the artificial lights
leaving patterns in my night

it's a loss of all sense
it's a loss of control
your conspiracy of silence
is all i've come to know

15 August 2012

the old familiar

if this is the way it is
if this is the way it is
if time goes by like this

well i planned on driving
for the old familiar escape
to save me from the feeling
of feeling amplified like this
by you

31 July 2012

signs of you

have you ever followed the line on your palm
do you find a trace of me there?
i ask this of you my dear
i ask this of you

because i've seen so many signs of you
i've seen so many sides of you

late tonight when you sleep
in the color you claim to see
will you go and find me?
and will you take the lead?

i ask this of you my dear

because i've seen so many sides of you
i've seen so many signs of you

15 June 2012

hands

i've never told you the story
about a summer night a couple years ago
the only time i've seen you play alone
no buffer, no filter, no barrier
between the sound of your soul and my world

and i've never told you the story
but my hands they were a'tremblin

and it's true, i didn't recognize this as love
it's true, i didn't know what the hell it was
it's true i knew at the time
it was way too much

and i've never told you the story
but my hands they were a'tremblin

10 June 2012

nothing outside

i have
boxes full of notebooks
notebooks full of words
words from the past.

tonight i opened a box
and opened a notebook
at random
and read the words
written
in thin black ink
at the top of a page:


Nothing outside of this room makes sense.

a flood of memories hit me
knocking me backward
seven years into the past
and
one thousand three hundred eighty-one miles
to the west
to a room up the stairs and down the hallway
from an unmarked dull grey metal door on ivar boulevard
one block to the west
of the corner
of hollywood and vine
in los angeles, california.

Nothing outside of this room makes sense.

on most weekend nights, and a handful of monday through fridays
i would be there
a few minutes before two o'clock in the morning
turning off the lights, the stereo, the amplifiers
waiting
in silence and near-complete darkness
for the half-drunk security guard to make his rounds
and go home for the evening.

i would spend the nights alone in that room
sleeping on the floor
between the kick drum and the amplifiers
and the pedal board and mic stands
using my backpack for a pillow
with my bass in my arms.

some nights i would sleep this way
some nights i wouldn't sleep at all.

Nothing outside of this room makes sense.

my soundtrack to those nights
were mixtape cds with bands like
,

i would plug in my bass and play along
or play my own thing
or i'd write
or just lie on the floor and listen
or just lie on the floor in silence.

or i'd turn off the lights
and dance
slow and steady
weaving around the room
through the maze of gear and memories.

Nothing outside of this room makes sense.

the walls were decorated with green xmas lights
arranged in unmistakable patterns
and words scrawled in black permanent marker
lyrics and poetry written by familiar hands
my own or another's
or some unknown stranger from years before.

there were no windows to the outside world
so day was night and night was day
and it really didn't matter at all
this room existed outside the confines
of the usual restrictions
of time.

the warmth and electricity
and relentless
creative energy
replaced it all.

Nothing outside of this room makes sense.

Nothing outside of this room makes sense.

15 May 2012

remind me

don't you fall in love with your sadness, dear
waiting in the wings is the world
i know you're as restless as i am dear
you know this distance isn't really real
don't you fall in love with the numbness dear
remind me what it's like to feel

14 May 2012

emerson

he said go
where there is no path
and leave a trail

23 April 2012

walking at night

tonight i found an outline of a shadow of a tree
lying still as death in the middle of the street
swaying from one of its branches
was a handmade catcher of dreams

billions of years of direct hits
yet somehow the moon's still there
leaving no trace of pain or bitterness
just a scarred kind of grace, a relentless glare

20 April 2012

secret things

have you ever felt like there are flames inside your veins?
flowing just like the blood that's somehow been replaced

this is what it feels like when i think of secret things

i see something in your eyes that says you've felt this way
i can hear it in your voice sometimes, it's written all over your face

this is what it feels like when i think of secret things

07 April 2012

eggshells

we're only given this one life to live
why you gotta be so careful with it

i don't wanna walk on these eggshells
anymore

we're only given this one love to live
why you gotta be so careful with it

i don't wanna walk on these eggshells
anymore

05 April 2012

on empty

spend too much time dreaming
not enough real life living
sleepless nights staring at the ceiling

and running
running on empty

there's no sign of breathing
in any photograph i'm seeing
just listening and living without feeling

and running
running on empty

30 March 2012

tunnel vision

met someone new, dear
but he's not you, dear
i turned and walked away

well it looks like i've been afflicted
with tunnel vision of the heart

but you're not here, dear
have i been clear, dear?
i'm not in this for the game

well it feels like i've been afflicted
with tunnel vision of the heart

26 March 2012

drifting

do you ever feel like
your feet can't touch the ground?
you're drifting through the ether
somewhere on the outskirts of town

i thought i heard you gliding towards me
i thought i saw you fly
somewhere in the ether
away from the city lights

08 March 2012

never better

pinpoint holes and superficial cracks
allow light to flow from the inside out
no camera lens can capture the magic of that

and no one can take it away
no one can take it away

the surface is rusty, adding character with age
we've seen so much worse, but never a better day for this change
and there's not a single soul who can take real love away

no one can take it away
no one can take it away

23 February 2012

the forest

a long time ago
an old man was standing in the middle of the road
he wouldn't let me pass
he said girl this isn't your path to follow
you've gotta find a way to enter the forest alone

19 February 2012

if i stay

there's a city that whispers to me in my sleep
with salt water breath, a million memories

if i stay in this room and never leave again
will i find an ocean of light inside?

15 February 2012

old soul

i vividly remember the moment we met
the way your eyes burned
like an old soul who had seen so much,
with so much more to see
and you didn't even know.

your eyes, they always burn.

take care of yourself
because i need you here in this world.

on sleepless nights

on sleepless nights like this
an ocean appears
on the insides of my eyelids
a rocky shore completely complete
with sound and everything-
the bittersweet hiss of saltwater droplets
splashing from stone to wind

this is what happens
on nights like this

13 February 2012

this is what happens

there's a place i'd rather be
but i can't figure out where it is
if i knew where it was
i'd be gone tomorrow
with a suitcase and a friend

this is what happens
when the walls are closing in

there's no place i'd rather be
another voice repeats
at odds with the other one
and so it goes
as the walls are closing in

this is what happens
when the walls are closing in

28 January 2012

out there

in my mind i'm driving
down that highway alone
it's december, feels like summer
and i'm out there alone

i'm out here for adventure
the adventure, alone

in my mind i'm hearing
a singing, a song
and i'm thinking if you were with me
then we'd both be at home

in my mind i'm driving
down that highway alone
it's december, feels like summer
and i'm out here alone

21 January 2012

letters & noise

all the colors in the world
are yours
if you want them
all you have to do
is surrender

go and find some grace
dig it out from your insides
fierce grace

all the love in the world
is yours
if you want it
all you have to do
is surrender

surrender

13 January 2012

in whispers

in whispers she lives
as his eyelids open, close

wake me
take me home

will you remind me what it's like
to live

will you remind me what it's like
to live life
in flesh and blood

wake me
take me home.

07 January 2012

her room

she dwells in a place hate will never see
in her own little mystic room
there aren't any walls
there isn't a roof
just an unbelievable view

this room, her room
is open to you
her room is open to you

you don't even know how long the winter
she's spent in her little room
you don't even know that she killed the coldness
with the fire she found in you

this room, her room
is open to you
her room is open to you